Greek Stuff

Recently, i starved myself specially to buy my very few last collection of the Percy Jackson series, THE MARK OF ATHENA and THE LOST HERO. I purchased THE SON OF NEPTUNE earlier beforehand, and regarless to say, it did not dissapoint. Rick Riordan has done his research well.



Amazing, how a writer like him can insert the facts in the plot and blend it so well with his writing style. it's no secret that he's a bit um, illogical in the way he writes, i mean Percy and his friends hardly make it out of a battle alive thanks to their great sword waving or knife stabbing skills. it usually turns out that Percy calls upon his great dad Poseidon with that warcry SUBMERGE ME IN WATER, DAD! or some random God they just made an offering to that got his attention he decided to offer last minute help. (Dionysus?) every single damn time. I put most of it down to luck, mostly.

But while Riordan actively lacks in describing combat details, he sure is good in twisting a plot. I mean, Percy is distantly related to a Cyclops. Oh, wow! though it might be more dramatic if Tyson turned out to be some ruthless, uncontrollable fire-spitting monster than one that crushes his half-brother to pieces and cries when he's alone. Yeah. Then theres the whole Greek Roman hostility thing. Bringing two leaders from two different camps to work together. Why not? Sounds like a brilliant story to me.

Only thing was, when the chosen seven started their journey in THE MARK OF ATHENA aboard Leo's ship, The Argo II, i could sense that the development of the characters was missing, especially Jason. We've been with Percy our entire journey reading his quests. We know how he and Annabeth ended up together. But, Jason? not much is described about his personality in detail apart that he's a son of Jupiter. Leo and Piper stands out right from the beginning.

Leo, your typical outcasted, annoying dumb freak that never takes anything seriously with his lame jokes. Piper, daughter of a movie star. First thought that comes to mind, pampered, haughty, seductive type. But hardly.
Piper is beautiful in a way that makes people see deeper into her, appriciating the person she is inside, and not just the shell. In the book, she admits she doesn't like using her Charmspeak, which is why she only uses it when absolutely necccesarry (unlike Drew.) and of course she can't live without her beloved boyfriend Jason. Being the daughter of Aphrodite and all, love is essential to her life. They describe him as 'Jason being the star of the show'.

But i hardly read him in any action, apart from when he summons small storms here and then. which is a pity, because i did want to know more about his character in depth. Nothing is also said about his life in Camp Jupiter, which makes it hard for me to associate him with Hazel as close friends, typically because ive never seen them both in action before. You have to create that bond between your characters for your readers to understand before you throw them into something surprising.

Now that's the thing about Rick Riordan. On every page you turn, suspense and surprise is built. Ah, the things i could relate. But there's just too many. For me, if Riordan could add a little bit more seriousness into the plot, everything would be inkling perfect. and oh, give us a flashback into Jason's old life, hmm. I want a chance to like this character. xD

Rants about a Particular "Someone"

Oh no! Now, here comes that bitch again,
She never fails to drive us all insane!

Her thinking goes in opposite direction with our ways,
What we ask, she turns it away!

She yap like she's got some super Einstein brains,
Someone bloody tell her her "brains" belong in the drain!

She talks too long, and she gives incomplete info,
Yet she wonders why we understand her bitching less than a UFO!

Miss ****** dear, if I could give you a piece of my mind;
I’d tell you what was it about you that drive me crazy,
Since you keep on putting it down to us being lazy!

No disrespect to you, being a smartass “big shot” or what;
Still you need to get your head into some crash test,
Yeah, just so ya know you ain’t no better than the rest!

Still think you’re unique?
Receiving so much trouble from you;
Just you wait till my anger reaches its peak!

We all think you’re a slut!
Bet you don’t give a fuck;
Maybe you’re a genius and we are nuts?!!!

Please don’t be too full of yourself!
Amongst us we can see your true colours!
When we expose them you won’t be having anymore followers!

Oh what? You feel like ya sorta offended?
Okay then, as well you should be; dumb fuck!
You’re just a bitchy witch bringing us the shittiest of luck!

As this profanity poem concludes we stand by one thing;
Inside and out you’re a nasty piece of being!
How I wish we never had put up with you before;
But then again, we might’ve never had the chance to be this hardcore!

P.S : Read my lips; YOU’RE A FUCKING WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In collaboration with : "Drifting Dreamer.."

Betrayal aint nice..

now only do i realize how far distanced we are away from each other, should i face any more obstacles you do no more than bother to even glance in my wretched direction. but for him you'd run to the ends of the Earth of apologize over a thousand times, even if it werent yourself at fault. and you are furious at me for not supporting him before. how can i support him if he had used me like a disposable tool? and do you know you are only second in line, none of his priorities?
FOOL.
but what i hate about him the most is that he forced you to choose him over me. perhaps not forced, but influenced. twisted. corrupted your mind so that it would no longer be one of this family. then again, were you ever with us?

The bastard, i was sincere about trying to help you. Trying to help you see through her nature of disguise and do whatever it took possible for your heart to forget her. But instead you chase after her with a mind of possessed craze that i cant even save you from.
And you leave me at the said of the road trying to decide if you were just playing with me me for your amusement or maybe took me seriously for a very short while. after some debate, i confirm its the first. you weren't planning to give her up at all. all the while. why, even the secrets of her life i've told you've probably leaked them to her. honestly i couldn't give a fucking damn but i cant believe you have such blind eyes if you ever use them for seeing, that is, that you still ignore my advice and follow your tattered brain. i don't regret reading those messages, even if it was an invasion of privacy. i deserve to know whats been happening outside my knowledge, no? but then its not only just curiousity. maybe its an overpowering need for revenge.

Back to you, my beloved friend, if you really want to know its not just me that's holding you for blame. Why, others are too. And they've told me their share of stories of how you used and pathetically threw them away. after you found new friends, do you really just leave your old ones to rot like that? use them like tissue paper? i don't understand why you chose to do that.
You're treating us as if we've never existed. now i can even imagine you walking by past me without a word nor second glance. but when you see him, your face lights up and you run to that traitor, the player, the bastard. i know this will happen. And us? You couldn't give much thought. A long time ago i sworn not to break my promise but your broke yours and this is the outcome.

Valentine's Day

I still remember the day my heart broke. i wish i could say "fuck this shit" *troll face and forget it, but i cant and that annoys me. So let me get it all done here. I would've never thought of you, never felt you, heard you, if i had not seen those pictures, clicked on that blog and read its contents. It was harmless, intentionally, but its images and words went through me like a blade. The same situation i was in 4 years ago, at the very same blog. Does this girl know what she's putting herself through? The guy she's dealing with? He was my one hope at that time...and destroyed it, with that one so called seemingly harmless picture.
Still recalling shattered events in those years, where i thought high-school sweethearts and strumming guitar love songs(taylor swift) were the only things i wanted to priotirize in life, they seem so far to me now.

Lol, its hard to believe someone like me blogging about something that is pointless to me, right?
SO, today, instead of frantically searching for a last minute date, we went to an orphange. Luke created a facebook event for it and i didnt even know, not until ijust logged on facebook recently. We agreed to donate some things, and i went through my collection of books, selecting all of Enid Blyton's ones

(cuz im so sick of them, i read them a thousand times and over no offense to the author tho) and a couple of ones that didnt really interest me at all..i mean, if its something that i really care enough to think twice about giving it away, its books. usually i wouldnt mind much because my bookcase is so crammed..but i got these book vouchers recently and have been on a shopping spree since..

Yeah so since its Valentine's day and couples get together-day, obviously the ones that went for this trip are #foreveralone. including me. Tisha, Samanta, Jonny, Luke, me. An hour went by whilst i waited at Mc'd before someone finally showed up, Tisha.

Got out of it at last and we were on our way. The orphanage was at Klang and Luke's friend, Lindy or Lingyi. The orphanage was smaller than i thought, even smaller than the one i visited with my collegemates, but then that doesnt really matter.
we played games and i was already starting to warm up to them, they reminded me alot of the bunch we visited with my college mates. i feel kind of sad, because this kind of thing is well, you only visit once and after that, you dont think of coming back anymore.
Well the first time i got kinda attached to the small girl, forgot what her name was but argh- i still remember her because of her story. she told me her parents were divorced (not exactly divorced, her exact words were mommy and daddy dont live together any more) and that her mom sent her to live here.

She said she only saw her mom once every month. She never saw her father at all and she had an elder sister that never made an appearance after she was sent away. She only sees her mom and thats not frequent, her mom comes often just to drop off food and pay some bills before taking off.
I know it sounds normal to you, because you're not there, not experiencing the real gist of it. this girl the way she said it was emotionless, like she didnt really care. To her they werent family, just occasional strangers in her life. I thought it'd be a sensitive issue, but when i prodded further she really didnt care at all. Her family were her friends and caretakers at the orphanage, not the ones who abandoned her.

Sometimes these kids confuse me because whilst there are some that so clearly seek attention and love, there are those that just have completely no interest in interacting or anything. They maintain the 'no way we have done this before can we do something else why is it always the same thing' kind of attitude, so it makes me jumpy whenever i visit orphanages.
i dont know what to expect. Today's orphanage was good, i had loads of fun but i wish we could've stayed there longer. You know, i felt like adopting a daughter or son on the spot then- lol, and i always choose the younger ones. We played games la, next time have to bring more food. food always works. Great strategy to bring those kids out, seriously. KFC does it best. =D
I wanted to teach them to dance D: but they were so incredibly shy, TT Y U NO UNDERSTAND I WONT EAT U??!
The second orphanage was harder. not exactly orphanage, more like home for the disabled. okay, i didnt know what to do there.

They were having their dinner and my stomach was rumbling too. time to take off. I think Jonny was the most popular one there today. He got at least eight kids up to him with his MacBook.

When three of them burst into tears at the same time i got scared. Can we run away now? But then this indian boy came to save the day, yeay! He managed to convince her to the table, and i saw alot of the older ones playing with the smaller ones, so adorable. They really care. Not doing it cause im the elder and its my responsibility. Why? I guess its because they've only got each other in their life, and everyone's precious. ah, what a great story this would make. One is actually popping up in my head now, will be formed soon. We, well, take each other for granted. Idiot. but i cant do anything. I tried.

Visiting the home and orphanage was great..now pray that ill actually come up with a good friendship childhood bond kind of story.

Happy Valentine's!

Burdens, panic, directionless..

Everyone around me has the same kind of desperate look; frantic and anxious, trying to calm their nerves and sorting through their sanity, but perhaps mine stands out the most. Even in the times of my darkest hour like these i bear this burden alone for no one is by my side. No. God has ensured they would be far from me when i was to receive the blow.

The one cut that severed me from the confidence of my future. I was near breakdown then, angry yet guilty, and i seacrhed the crowd for a familiar face but found none. No one which i could relieve myself temporarily and forget what was to behold. There were brief greetings, short conversations exchanged with distant people but apart from that i felt completely lost. Everything was falling apart.
This was the day i swore i would put everything right, but now the situation has heightened to a worse state. The turmoil of emotions so well hidden before were starting to overwhelm me, so i fled to the library. Even then i could not find peace. I want to scream, throw tantrums and furniture and maintain that it was not my fault.

Did i not try? Was what happened on exam day my fault to begin with? And those that pretend to care, you are also the cause of my unending suffering. Pretending not to care is a closure of your emotions, and without those emotions, you come off as heartless. Rebellious. Uncaring. Failure. And that's how and what i've been labelled as.

So now here i am, stuck, with none but one direction. And i do not want to take that option. somehow i fear it will not run accordiing to plan, but today itself was already in a mess. So, what else can go wrong?

MUCH MUCH MORE.